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I was getting divorced. My entire life, I thought divorce was not an option. Marriage is forever. Anything less is unacceptable. Everything I thought I knew about myself suddenly became undone. I had done the unthinkable. Who was I now?
For three years, I looked for the answer to that question. I had been married for six years. Something inside me told me I needed three to recover. I wrote a three-year vision in my journal and, but for a few minor detours, stuck to that plan.
I searched for myself across the Western Hemisphere, from the highest mountain peaks to the lowest canyon riverbeds. I fasted for four straight days...twice. I forced myself through hundreds of Bikram Yoga classes, glaring at a different me in the mirror, a shattered me, waiting for the person I thought I knew to finally appear.
Along the way, I found pieces of myself. When my three years wound to a close, everything fell into place, ending in a miracle. A miracle that I am still uncovering, that would have never been possible without the great and terrible experience of divorce.